It’s still roughly the beginning of December but I’m jumping on finishing off 2019 so that I can take the time to enjoy the season as well as to finish planning for 2020…the year, not the show, just in case I had to clear that up. I’m not gonna lie, I’m disappointed in myself as far as what I’ve accomplished for the year. I had big plans, or at least big ideas but I really didn’t make any of it happen and a lot of that is simply because life would get hectic and I never made the time which is a big thing that I want to change in the coming year and I’ll address everything else in turn down below I promise. Before I get in to things though I want to share what I’ve learned over the year and the biggest thing that I learned is that to be a success at something you love you can’t wait for time to open up to follow your dreams, you have to make the time, nothing gets handed to you (that part I knew already though) and any dream worth following requires time and effort to make it happen. A lot of my time is partially spent on procrastinating and other parts are simply me trying to find ways to unwind from work and putting off what I want to do until the last minute so in the coming year (actually years I suppose), while taking time for me is just as important as anything else but I need to balance that with following my passions as well and on that note, I’m going to start rambling some more about what’s going to be happening.
A large part of this has gone from wanting to talk about new games, to reviewing random games (usually older games), to a bizarre mixture of review/diary of sorts. Now taking that all in, it’s not to say the journey has been bad and I’m not going to sit here and say “I need to focus” or “I’m going in one direction” because the truth of the matter is, part of this has been fun where I’m essentially just writing what I love or what I love to write about and I actually don’t plan on changing much of that.
I’m still going to talk about the things I love but the biggest difference when it comes to my writing will be that I want to get ahead of the game, I want to make sure I not only have the article ready long before I plan on posting it, but I also plan on having at least a couple of weeks out so I don’t have to worry about any surprises disrupting my post schedule, plus having that buffer will give me more time to focus on other projects as well.
Speaking of schedule I plan on keeping to where I’m at, once a week and the only thing I can’t decide is if I want to post on Saturday or Sunday as both options are good but sometimes I just want to publish it so people can see it…so that part is still up in the air though I’m leaning towards Saturday mornings that way people can enjoy my nonsense over the entire weekend. As for topics, I know what I want to do and I also don’t know what I want to do (totally confusing I know, let me clear it up). So here’s how I see it, I like doing my own thing when it comes to reviews and I plan on keeping those for sure only I may refine how I write them but that’s going to be the surprise for the coming year, for both you and me if I can actually figure it out. In addition to my own reviews I plan on keeping up with the “Gaming Memories” topics for as long as I can remember my own gaming past and the reason being is it lets me relive my memories as well as share something of myself. Now that I think about it and taking another look at the blog in general, I think a lot of what’s there I’m going to keep doing, talking about books and movies as well as other random topics as I find the inspiration to write them.
Part of this, I suppose, is about refocusing but in large part it’s more of just creating a plan and one that I plan on sticking to. Sure, I may have to adjust and alter the plan over time, but this gives me a good starting point.
If you’ve been following along you’ve probably missed that I stream, even more so you’ve probably missed that I stream for Extra-Life and you would be completely forgiven for missing that because I’m terrible at what I do. Okay joking aside, I’ve done Extra-Life for several years and failed (in my eyes) year after year and a large part of that is because I fail to advertise that I’m doing it at all let alone on the yearly game day and that is a huge thing I want to fix. Now I don’t plan on spamming everything I do with the fact that I’m doing charity streams, but I do plan on making it more visible than I do now.
On that note, I’ve bounced around numbers each year, I’ve tried raising $1,000 and I’ve tried raising $500, and in both cases it’s because I think I’m better than I am so next year the goal will be much lower and realistic, plus if I surpass the goal even better. I do plan on being more vocal about it so that I can do better and there are still things to work through as far as how to do that, but that’s part of why this is the last post of the year so that I can take the time to plan things out.
Now part of this goes along with Extra Life up there but there’s more to it than just that. First off, streaming was never meant to make me any money (which is good cause I’d be on the streets right about now if it was), however I won’t lie that it would have been awesome. Realistically that isn’t the goal though, I enjoy streaming, I enjoy playing games and sharing the ones I love but we all know how easy it is to get lost in a sea of thousands of hopefuls wanting to make it their full time job. In general, I stream because it’s fun and I plan on keeping to that ideology to be honest. I want to stream games that aren’t the normal “mainstream” games that everyone else is streaming, it’s already easy to get lost in that sea so there’s no point in making things even harder on myself. To be honest I’ve streamed a few games that had gotten a good reception because they are interesting and quirky or just plain different in general so you can expect that in the future more often, and I’ve also been told by a good friend that I’m good when I talk, easy to listen to and fun to watch and that alone gives me reason to stream more if I can brighten someone’s day even a little.
That being said, I do still plan on bringing bigger games to my stream as well but there are hundreds of others doing it much better than I and I’m not going to really try to grab that attention from them…mostly cause I know I can’t, plus I can’t afford to keep buying new games like I used to.
This is the last subject I want to talk about for now, gotta save something for later after all. I know up above I said that I didn’t stream as a source of income and that is still very true (how could it not be, it was like…a paragraph and a half ago), but I do have a lot of things I want to work on and if I can do well enough that anyone would like to donate then even better. To be honest the real, or rather biggest, reason I’ve been looking into both of these (and trying Ko-Fi for a bit) is that I love to both draw and write and I like doing both the old-fashioned way with pen and paper so any and all money I get from either source would go mainly to that as well as towards newer games to stream and/or review, but mainly supplies. Of all the things I want to do this upcoming year, this will be the hardest to figure out so that is definitely not something that is going to happen January 1, no it’s more like a spring thing that I’ll finally introduce it properly and even then it’s only if I get the feeling there is any interest, I hope there is, but we’ll see about that one.
There you have it folks, it’s not everything and actually the list is pretty long of all the things I want to accomplish but these are the three big ones to start with (and lead in to in the case of Patreon and Ko-Fi). I will say that as I finish this up I’ve been going through a bit of a depression, honestly I’ve been feeling as low as I’ve felt in a very long time in that it feels like my life is going no where and that is a scary thought when your in your late 30s and you feel you haven’t accomplished anything. If I had my way, I would make a living writing and drawing, drawing (realistically) isn’t going to happen, but writing always could and it’s a goal I work towards and want to work towards until it happens. My biggest concern is like many people I wake up, go to work, come home, and go to bed…rinse, wash, and repeat and I don’t want that to be the remainder of my existence on this rock, I want to be able to enjoy life without constantly worrying about if I have enough to pay the bills, I want to experience life and be in life not just watching it happen to others and I’ve declared in a way that 2020 will be the year that changes everything and that change will, and even has to, start with me. Thank you for sticking around for this and I hope to see you in the months and years to come.